TIMOTHY~

2012-02-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

soaking in sweetness

a quiet fountain

2012-01-26T21:32:00.001+08:00

As a new batch starts I am reminded how much can be achieved in two months.

2012-01-09T01:02:00.002+08:00

another one of my theories..

how players come about..

this is how i think a player comes about..

but before i go on.. most of the statement i'm gonna make are assumptions..

so step 1: a fairly handsome guy - 6 or above out of 10.

step 2: handsome guy plucks up courage to go out with girl.

step 3: girl gives in easily to guy, and they go out.

step 4: guy has a great time.

step 5: guy meets another girl who is fairly attractive and she seems interested.

step 6: guy tries for this new girl.

step 7: guy succeeds OR

step 7: guys fails, but tries again for another girl

step 8: and another girl, and....

step 9: finds meeting girls easy, and becomes a player

additional assumptions:

step 2.5: most guys are shy, and don't even try to make the first move.

step 2.75: as most guys don't try, guys who try become a rarity

step 2.8: girls are flattered by this most exquisite behaviour from the guy

step 4.5: guy is not very faithful and committed. (optional)

two critical factors:

1. girl giving in easily. (nurture)

2. being unfaithful in nature. (nature)

so it's not entirely a bad thing that girls play hard to get.. :)

2012-01-01T17:38:00.001+08:00

take me back to the city of angels

with eyes wide open, skyful of rainbows

2011-12-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

now i know what i want for christmas

2011-12-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

a pan of sizzling caramel..

haha.. okay that was random

2011-11-25T15:24:00.002+08:00

the hardest part is eating the medicine, isn't it.

this mess i've created is just epic.

how could i have been so careless?

it's like one of those unforgivable unforced errors.

i can't explain it myself.

what was going through my mind when i created that presentation....

hmmm.. how on earth could i have forgotten all the standard templates

and just come up with my own template.

and on top of that, thought it would be fine.

hahahaha.. but come to think of it, it was kinda fun.

hey, come on. everybody makes mistakes right?

even the best?

hahahaha

2011-10-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

looking forward to the weekends :)

2011-10-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

i cry for my jeans... :'(

2011-09-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

Commanders command full stop

A Ball of Contradiction

2011-09-18T14:02:00.003+08:00

Reading a book titled The Compassionate Mind. I just thought the title sounded interesting and so I borrowed it.

Read another book titled 36 Arguments for the Existence of God. I totally didn't understand it by the way. Somehow the themes inside the fiction were suppose to elucidate the existence of God, but I fail to follow anything that is less than 100% certain. Anyway, it had some interesting things inside like escalation theory and validity of probability.

Anyways, it's so fascinating to think about how our minds work: the conditioning that our minds go through when we are young, the competing belief systems we have and how we reconcile them, and in the event we can't reconcile them the resulting cognitive dissonance, the game theories we unknowingly apply in making decisions.

Make me wonder how much of what I do is directly my doing - an expression of my essence. For that matter, I highly doubt the existence of the essence of a person or what people call innate personality. Seems to me, it's just the genes and environmental conditioning that makes a man.

So when you say be true to yourself, it just means be true to your gene (which you can't change) and be true to your past (which you can't change). And so what happens when a psychopath comes along? We immediately try to change him. It's not about being true to yourself people.. That's such a load of cow crap that the western media has been feeding you.

I ask so many people here what they want, and they say they want to be a better man. They want to change from who they are now to someone better. Many people are not satisfied with who they are now - the current state they are in. They want to be that guy who makes it big, that guy who people talk about and like, that guy who knows how to enjoy life, that guy who knows how to love people, that guy who knows how to manage his time well and live that dream life.

Do they say, I want to be true to myself, I want to stay the same, I never want to change? The hell.. Nobody would ever say that, unless they are high on ecstasy or madly in love or in some other severely altered state of mind. People want to be better.

And so at the end of this blog post, I'm stuck in a dilemma as to how I should finish off this rambling. I could either say life is about being a better person or doing the things that we want to do. What shall I say defines a person? And then I think of a word.. eureka! Aspiration!

2011-09-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

happiness is overrated.

2011-09-16T10:51:00.002+08:00

it ain't the end when you fall,

so get up and keep trying.

2011-09-15T06:42:00.001+08:00

With challenge comes satisfaction.

Are our firsts the best?

2011-09-10T22:47:00.002+08:00

Norah's debut album was awesome.

Prison Break season 1 was genius itself.

Lost season 1 was mysterious and engrossing enough.

Maroon 5's debut album was deranging. And I mean it as a compliment.

And then I think about myself.

What was I was 10 years ago?

2011-09-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

I love quotes. There's nothing like quotes that give you a one sided story. Quotes like "no pain, no gain". Obviously, it's talking about working for a reward, or more significantly the concept of delayed gratification. Then there's quotes like "live for the moment," "carpe diem," "eat, drink and be happy, for tomorrow we die." The latter is one of my favourite quotes. It has the essence of hedonism and the brevity of life in it; so succinct.

Anyways, latter quotes and the former quote - "no pain, no gain" - nullify each other. Okay, maybe not exactly nullify each other. When put together, they give a greater picture of the world and life. See what I just said? I said the opposing quotes nullify each other and also give a greater picture of the world and life. That's the trouble with words and ideas and thoughts: you get to cherry pick for the circumstance that you are in. It's being disloyal, untrue to the self or simply being a wuss. But of course, it can also be a practical thing to do, pragmatic, wise even.

Anyway, someone sends me quotes each week, and this one touched my heart as I received a batch of recruits.

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant." - Robert Stevenson

Then he ends off with TGIF! :-) but I'm having confinement week, so.. anyway! I feel hope is such a big part of my life now. I mean everything I do now is sort of in preparation for the future. It's amazing to know how much of what we are doing now is in hope of a better future, unless you've drown in the monotonous repetitions that you lost sight of your original goal. It awakes in me the hopes and wishes, desires and wants.

2011-09-03T01:21:00.002+08:00

If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?

But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.

2011-09-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to think.. maybe army isn't the place for me.

No. More precisely, the people in the army are not for me.

This place is hollow. I find no meaning.

Turn me on.

2011-08-30T05:07:00.002+08:00

fuck damn it.

i have to get my acts straight.

5D by ord, or something as valuable as that.

let's do the math: sep to feb.

6 months.

5D costs... say 5k.

so that's at least 800 a month..

2011-08-27T00:07:00.003+08:00

serendipity. i like the sounds of that word.

firstly, there's the word serene in it which makes it sound very peaceful.

and it brings me to this place full of water colours and lights.

strangely enough, the word has nothing to do with peacefulness.

it means something like a happy accident - a situation where you find something unexpected.

more interestingly, it comes from a story which takes place in a place called serendip.

serendip is the modern sri lanka!

serendip in its original language translates to the "dwelling place of lions" island.

i got all these from wiki of course.

but anyways, serendipity. nice lovely elegant word. :)

2011-08-19T22:31:00.002+08:00

You pass in and out of my dreams.

You bring me to a place so foreign.

But the way we sway makes me wonder the most.

Come dream come, to cowardly fantasy take me.

2011-08-18T10:17:00.002+08:00

This is an interesting article..
Can Singapore wean itself of cheap foreign labour... Hmm..
Well partly because I'm somewhat a foreigner.. and somewhat a Singaporean.
Where does a permenant resident stand exactly? hahaha
That's so besides the point.

Cheap labour by foreign workers.
There's this part where Mr. Ho says the number of construction workers can be reduced by a factor of 10 for the same project if the workers are skilled.. Hmm..
Assuming this is a similar case for other sectors -industries where we use cheap foreign labour - and pay can rise relative to the reduction of cheap foregin labour..
Would skilled Singaporans take up the job if the salary of these industry sectors become comparable to those of other service industries? and rid itself of cheap foreign?
Or would Singaporean still consider these professions too low for them?

Nevertheless, I find this a possible solution to Signapore's qualm about the overly abundant number of foreigners in Singapore. If people are willing to be trained to be construction workers, and the job does pay well, then what's there to lose? Is it not honorable to wipe to your own ass? ;)

2011-08-15T21:49:00.003+08:00

Hmm... 1 in 4 went to university this year huh..

Sounds extremely socially imbalanced to me.

Assuming that every degree holder would want to minimally rise to a managerial position in the near future, you can expect a whole lot of mismatch employment in the future.

1 out of 4 is a manager.

3 out of 4 ground level worker.

hmm..

well, of course i can't say for sure that that is a bad proportion of undergrads, and eventual graduates.. since i don't study sociology or statistics..

but my gut feeling tells me it's somewhat imbalanced.

and in the foreseeable future, there will be many graduates taking jobs that pay way less for what their degree is worth.

2011-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

i don't feel like doing anything...

see what meeting friends do to you!! >:(

2011-08-13T23:51:00.002+08:00

Here are my thoughts on the movie Zookeeper.

Okay, first things first: I don't particularly enjoy watching movies with talking animals. It's just plain retarded and childish. It gives me the goose bumps.

Okay, in the movie, Griffin, the zookeeper, tries to be someone, who he's not, to win a his ex's heart. So he goes on to impress his ex-girlfriend, his ex-girlfriend's friends, associates and so on. He gets a better job at a car dealership, wear suits, attend parties, so on and so forth.

THEN he realises that that lifestyle isn't what he wants, and he doesn't want to become what his ex-girlfriend - who by then is again his girlfriend - expects him to be. He ditches his high-paying job and goes back to become a zookeeper. Then realises that his true love is a co-worker in the zoo..

Hmmmm.... This movie totally reeks of social discriminatory motif. It shouts, you lower class people stay where you are and don't climb the ladder; because that -climbing up the social ladder - is being untrue to yourself. Be true to yourself; be what you are - a lower social class person- and find someone from the same social class.

Okay, I admit that the paragraph above is saturated with cynicism. Don't blame me; I report what I see. And if there are people out there judging me by what I say (using the argument of "a person's statement tells more about the person than the object of the statement") then ... well, I don't really care actually. Haha

2011-08-12T23:00:00.001+08:00

vines that grow on stony dry soil make the sweetest grapes,

cos there's not much water, and the sugar is saturated.

and those grapes make the best wine.

that's me - vines on stony dry soil.

2011-08-09T18:13:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2011-08-09T14:29:00.001+08:00

i'll tell you one book you should read. it's tony buzen's Use Your Head!

2011-08-09T14:02:00.001+08:00

craving for that chocolate slab... >.<

hang on hahn dong!

don't give in!!

2011-08-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

Part 3

So if your past determines your present and your present determines your future, won't you say your past determines your future? That sounds really sad. I do partially believe it though. But I believe that we can change course - in the present - for the future. I know that just contradicts what I said about determinism, but what the hell. It also does not contradict.. if you think about it.

"We have the choice and ability to make our lives better." How does that statement sound? I'm not trying to be cynical or anything, but I think that sounds totally absurd. Philosophically speaking of course. But I still believe we have the choice and ability to make not only our lives but the world a better place. Doublethink.

I believe there are only two people capable of this. One, those lucky people who have everything in life the way they want it. Two, those who want it and actually do something about it.

I don't belong to the first category. And so my only option left would be number two.

The thing is, I've realised the power of desire. I was going through a coaching and facilitation course, when suddenly my coach asked me, what do you want?

2011-08-05T23:37:00.003+08:00

Part 2

I believe in determinism. That is a theory which says that things will definitely happen in one way and in no other way. I don't believe in possibilities. The series of events that happened in the past could have only happened the way it happened; the cause and effect, the action and reaction does not allow for any deviation.

This is one of the things that I use to console myself when I find myself regretting some stupid mistakes in the past.

If you ask me, "what about choice?" I would say I simply don't think about it. Looking at time and life from a grander scheme of things, I doubt there's such a thing as choice.

Although.. I do make choices daily.. That's doublethink for you. I come up with goals, and I work towards them. I don't bother to reconcile determinism and choice, cause' the last thing I wanna hear is that I'm disillusioned. That just showed how illogical I am ... Okay stop!

I'd like to believe that it is me who is making the moral decisions in life, but thinking about it, it's really the influence that I had from young. Why do you think alcoholics continue drinking and rapist continue raping? It's all in the programming of the mind and the circumstances. Or let's put it this way, why do you think philanthropists and volunteers continue serving?

Okay, I realised I've brought in the topic of upbringing into this post. But yea, that's an important aspect when I look at people and myself. Habits and mindsets are so deep-rooted that they can weather the changing circumstances most of the time. Doesn't that play a big role in our lives? How we behave and make decisions?

Simplifying my proposition: your childhood, family environment, habits and circumstances determine your future.

2011-08-04T21:03:00.005+08:00

Death has been a subject that's been popping up a lot lately. Well, I haven't really thought about my death yet.. And I think I should start thinking about how I wanna live and die.

I'd say living a short life would be better than a long one. Say, 65 years old? Then I'll die of an accident. I say live short, live hard, make the world a better place; when it's time to go, just go, don't be a liability.

And when I think about death, I think about life and its meaning - what is it all worth? When you die, you just die; you go butt naked like how you came into this world. The rich, the poor, the famous, the stigmatized all die. Then does it really matter how I live my life, since everyone has the same ending?

If I work hard and save up to buy a house and a car and whatever thing else, I still leave them behind when I die. If I squander my wealth and starve to death on the streets, I still have the same ending as that of a hard-working lad.

The wicked and the righteous both die. The king and the pauper, the genius and the retarded, the boss and the worker, the beautiful and the ugly.. They All Die.

Some people say life is meant to be purpose driven. In the Bible it says life is about loving God and enjoying in Him. Some say it's about leaving behind a legacy..

Well, I know that God created this earth and everything in it, and all the intricacies of our everyday life, but I don't see where He wants me to be. What's my purpose? What do you want me to do God? To be honest, what God wants is the furthest thing on my mind.

Well, I don't seek to know His will actually, and I have a good reason for that. Did Joseph know how God was gonna use him? Did Moses know he was going to lead the people out of Egypt? Did John know that he was gonna be Jesus' disciple one day? No! Not at all! They just lived their lives like everybody else. And so I am not going to bother myself with God's will and His plans for me, because when He wants to use me, He'll use me, so I'll leave that as that.

So then, what do I focus on for my life? I believe when you have a goal in mind, you're more likely to achieve it. Also, you focus your time, money, energy and strength on that realizing that goal, rather than squandering them in all trades and realizing none. I would like to live my life with a goal in mind, to achieve something.

I haven't got anything spectacular in mind, but I think getting a house, a car and a stable income would be a good start. I'd say that would probably take up 25 years of my life. That would leave me with another 15 years.. Hmm... marriage, kids, family.. That's about it I guess.

p.s. So since it's pretty much agreed that life ends the same way, we might as well make the best use of our time. I assume the popular opinion would be to be happy and content as much as you can, i.e. fill everyday with sunshine, love and everything nice. It's easy to agree with such a proposition I guess.

Interestingly, one of my friend says to live life to the fullest would mean to live whole. That means to say, to be happy, sad, anger, jealous, ecstatic, enthusiastic, amazed.. and all sorts of other emotions and stuff like that. It's more wholesome, so to speak.

Well, lately, I've come to ignore my emotion as appendage to my bodily and mental function of survival..

2011-08-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

getting pretty old for this stuff..

2011-08-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

called someone fucking irritating.. in the face!

i know that makes me a bad person... :(

but it's so exhilarating and liberating! woohoo! :D

2011-08-01T14:43:00.000+08:00

like vines growing on stony dry soil
careful not to dilute the goodness

2011-07-29T00:40:00.001+08:00

Back to studying maths! Wooh!

2011-07-26T11:33:00.000+08:00

Wheee!! :) Hahahaha! Pray the decision stays, cos I wanna stay here.

2011-07-25T18:15:00.002+08:00

"...but I felt the explosive in my feet. Everyone had the same feeling... My wife was caught by the glass and the shock wave of explosion... smell of ionized air linger.." - BBC News on 2011 Norway Attacks

How would it have felt like..

2011-07-25T17:23:00.003+08:00

The amazing thing about pain is that it protracts time.

Conversely, the wonderful thing about happiness is that it contracts time.

What beautiful ironies of life. :)

2011-07-25T08:25:00.001+08:00

I feel more confident about accountancy in singapore than economics in uk..

2011-07-22T17:09:00.001+08:00

The power of "let there be.."

2011-07-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

chin gu ga pil yo hae

2011-07-20T00:13:00.001+08:00

a dormant seed

cast into the recesses of the earth

2011-07-20T00:04:00.001+08:00

Is it possible for you to be pushed to background in your own life?

2011-07-13T15:14:00.001+08:00

anything a man sets his mind on can be surely accomplished.

2011-07-12T03:24:00.002+08:00

Everyone deserves a second third chance. We're all human and we make mistakes. :/

2011-07-11T23:35:00.001+08:00

if i don't go to school soon..
i'm afraid there will no hope for this gray mass.. :(

2011-07-06T00:01:00.004+08:00

... Many people have told me the same thing. But i only try to speak if necessary. Mahatma Gandhi wrote this in his autobiography : "My hesitancy in speech, which was once an annoyance, is now a pleasure. Its greatest benefit has been that it taught me the economy of words. I have naturally formed the habit of restraining my thoughts. And now I can give myself the certificate that a thoughtless word hardly ever escapes my tongue or pen." and " silence is part of spiritual discipline of a votary of truth. Proneness to exaggerate, to suppress or to modify the truth, wittingly or unwittingly, is a natural weakness of man, and silence is necessary in order to surmount it. A man of few words will rarely be thoughtless in his speech." ...

This was told to me by my recruit. I guess there's something to learn from everyone.

2011-07-01T15:28:00.002+08:00

Battling laziness. It's a tough one. When you've got a comfy little office with aircon and a laptop, making penguins fly trumps everything else.

2011-06-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

the thing inside me that quietly longs for life is dead.
because i killed it.

2011-06-28T13:06:00.003+08:00

Photography in lights and shadows

2011-06-27T17:15:00.002+08:00

In every picture there's a story, and you gotta respect that.

2011-06-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

I don't want to move out.

2011-06-25T08:43:00.001+08:00

how do you make someone who has nothing to say say anything..

2011-06-24T13:48:00.002+08:00

"Those who try to be clever at the expense of the government should not complain if my replies are as sharp as their criticisms." - Lee Kuan Yew, From Third World to First

2011-06-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

“Our forefathers had civilization inside themselves, the wild outside. We live in the civilization they created, but within us the wilderness still lingers. What they dreamed, we live, and what they lived, we dream.” -T.K. Whipple

epic comeback

2011-06-20T22:56:00.004+08:00

sweet regurgitation boosts your morale.

so what happened was. after the first time i let it all out, i had 3 cans of AloeV, one bottle of sports drink and 100ml of saturated lemon tea (2 sachets). pretty sweet :)

then off i went for the remaining 4 click, during which i had another episode. this time, i could taste the flavour as they were flowing through my two orifice. (there's only orifice around the nose and mouth region, so don't be stupid)

after that, i felt super light and fit to go! ;) lesson learnt: let it all out. then drink sweet drink. then let it all out again. :)

2011-06-17T09:28:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, that's how my laughter of joy sounds like.
i mean you laugh when you're happy right, and joy is a happy thing, so you laugh for joy.
why would anyone cry for joy? i mean, do tears of joy make any sense?
then we could have shocks of joy, frown of joy, farts of joy..

2011-06-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

conviction and passion.. hmm..

2011-06-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

it'll take someone who can tame my thorns

too lazy to blog?? what's become of me?

2011-06-15T18:16:00.004+08:00

too lazy to blog? or am i too lazy to think.
or maybe i'm intimidated by words such as authority, legitimacy and leadership.
or maybe.. just maybe i'm afraid to find that i was wrong by the end of my discussion.

p.s. i hate to cut myself up with logic and reasoning, because logic is a cold, hard bitch. once she bites you, you won't feel pain; you'll feel empty.

:/

2011-06-14T23:23:00.004+08:00

Really bored in here.
Miss the days in ocs.
And.. I really hate the stupid people around here...
Life.. sigh

p.s. they should just send all the rude and bossy people to some nazi concentration camp.

p.p.s. that makes me a purist like the nazis in some way... whatever.

books and mud don't mix

2011-06-13T19:10:00.002+08:00

attempt at reading mr. lee's book outfield was totally fail
can't wait to sit down and just read..

2011-06-12T11:40:00.001+08:00

time to get a nice hair cut

2011-06-07T08:10:00.002+08:00

if we could read emotions like the colours of flowers
or like words on pages.
if we could hear emotions miles away like the volcano
or the music on radio.
if we could smell, touch and taste emotions..

but then again, if only we'd let our emotions show..

2011-06-06T20:56:00.002+08:00

disconnecting from this place..
my mind's wandering off..
i don't think i can last..
need to.. .. climb

2011-06-05T19:59:00.002+08:00

what the point of being accepted by a prestigious university when you've got no mola to pay the smart-ass people to teach you.

2011-06-03T19:33:00.001+08:00

The quality of work that I produce are like triple grade A weed, but I don't think anybody realises that..

2011-06-01T21:10:00.001+08:00

I think the most evil thing to do is to keep people in suspense.

2011-05-31T23:59:00.002+08:00

You're the most beautiful place I know.
You set my spirit free and we jump in moonlight
over hills and waves.
And when you leave me in the morning,
I am filled and satisfied.
Visit me tonight, every night.

2011-05-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

The only people who can be confident are those who've been to the future before.

To be confident, you need the experience.
To have the experience, you need to step into the water.
To do something for the first time, you need the confidence.

Now, it's quite true that all three previous statements are .. fallacious; and it's also quite true that many people fall into this semi-quasi catch-22 kinda situation for many things. Human, being human, are afraid of the unknown, the uncertain. For me, this time, it's conducting a camp this large a scale. Well, I'm kinda glad that I've been pushed into the water. Cos really, there's nothing to lose.. nothing so great at least. Ha

2011-05-25T18:17:00.002+08:00

brilliant flare shining through the arch
showering her golden locks with brilliance

2011-05-25T14:22:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wish I were in a room;
and all that there is in the room is a singing voice,
a beautiful singing voice.

2011-05-25T09:37:00.001+08:00

sour my mouth
and quell this rebellious stomach

2011-05-25T09:32:00.002+08:00

If I had lungs to breathe, I'd breathe

2011-05-24T20:25:00.002+08:00

looking for a heart to nestle in

2011-05-24T17:40:00.002+08:00

saw a shooting star,
made a wish.
then i thought,
and i regretted.

2011-05-20T06:11:00.000+08:00

wild dreams
of a pool by the sea
with waves crashing into us.

2011-05-19T06:56:00.002+08:00

i need to get a life! i'm cooped up in this.. this island like a chicken in a cage?
that's such an unglam metaphor.
like a rockstar in a prison.. -.-
i have no idea how you could ever make being cooped up in a place sounds glam.

2011-05-16T19:47:00.002+08:00

Doing nothing for no apprent reason.
That sounds pretty okay, but what about this:
For no apprent reason, I didn't do anything.
Okay, if that's still fine, then about this:
I didn't drive a ferrari for no apperent reason.

Haha if you got that, then you're probably on same wavelength as me. :)

2011-05-16T12:02:00.002+08:00

Motivation and reasons
Thoughts and decisions
Puppet and the master
because i think we are all tied with strings
and unless we actively pave our path
we'll be played by life
to a meaningless end

2011-05-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

Ah, i miss those times when i could stay up late and listen to the same song over and over again.. then do my homework or whatever.. and just take my time, knowing full well that i would fall asleep in class the next day.
and falling asleep in class wasn't really a bad bad thing. i mean it was still excusable.. ;)
being an adult sucks..
God bless my future and sprinkle it with comfort and rest. Amen. :)

2011-05-11T15:40:00.000+08:00

why is my head spinning..

2011-05-07T22:44:00.003+08:00

This blows my mind.
Cos this is real, and I'm touching/not touching lives.
Cos this is no more child's play.
It's make or break, and I've got 8 weeks to make it happen.
This leader thing.. it's really quite adventurous.
This power thing.. satisfying.

The Senses and Imagination

2011-05-07T16:59:00.002+08:00

I love how poetry, music and pictures teleport us to another place.
A familiar face to look at is always a comfort.
And music brings me around to different places, emotions, mind sets, paradigms.
And you can always choose where you want to go or not to go.
And with poetry, with poetry you can make love.

2011-05-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

when i've got nothing better to do, i blog.

-2

2011-05-03T11:41:00.002+08:00

A bikini clad girl lay supine by the pool, with her pinky dipped in the water.
Her nubile body radiating more heatwave than the warmth absorbed from the noon sun.

-1

2011-05-03T10:10:00.003+08:00

The brilliant rays from the torrid desert sun
rest magnificently on the lustrous bald head,
producing a dazzling halo and steam.

2011-05-02T14:38:00.002+08:00

I wonder what life would be like when you're gray and old.

What about when your loved ones die.

And how would it feel like to marry.

This is some random photography website.

2011-05-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

yawn

what shall i do

i need to occupy myself with something

if not i'll just sleep

okay, what shall i invest in

language

economics

friends

fitness

i don't wanna think about it

2011-04-30T15:01:00.002+08:00

Why do warriors fight with their lives on the line?

Is there something so great that it demands your very own life, your soul?

Can the cause outweigh the comforts and pleasures of life?

To cease to exist so that the idea, the belief may continue to exist.

Or are all warriors dead from birth.

Born and breed without the frivolity of society.

Because to fight and die for any cause is their lives.

2011-04-28T22:47:00.003+08:00

thoughts running through my head.
replays and replays. thought experiments.
assumptions. plans. desires. regrets.
nostalgia. aspirations. emotions.
freaking treadmill inside my head.
and i hate to think. not today.
unless it's some abstract philosophical argument.
because each thought process, each idea
hits me in the head like a brick.
i am bound to this chair, rendered immobile.
and out there, there are so many things to do.
it's almost certain that doom is at hand.
failure inevitable. and my thoughts are simply reminders of failure-to-be
because, the whole world's in my head,
and all i have is a hand.
the whole world's in my head,
and i can see the future.

2011-04-28T22:15:00.003+08:00

STRUGGLE

This is what makes life great.

2011-04-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

Have you ever mused in wonder at how special you are?
At how unique your personality is?
Or how varied your interests are, but at the same time they're so similar because they're so you?
At how intelligent you are? Or at how good you are at making other uncomfortable?
At how apathetic you are? Or at how selective you are with your friends?
At how stingy you are? Or at how extravagent you are sometimes for no reason?
At how you love to set rules and orders? Or at how impulsive and spontaneous you are?
I could on, but you will only discover how full of contradictions you are, that you are the most wonderful, most complex, the best, the worst.
At the end of the day, I think even narcissism is no match for our affinity to veracity; and discovering ourselves is way more enjoyable than deluding ourselves.
:)

2011-04-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

I got owned today. You'd probably don't know how it feels like because you probably haven't been owned like this mega-big time before. It's like when barathrum bashes a bone fletcher, and he gets stunned, and the player goes like "fffffffffffffffffff" 1thousand,2thousand,3thousand... ughhhh -.-

rm!

2011-04-24T18:36:00.003+08:00

today my heart's beating fast and i don't know why

is it because of that black bag in the bus, which belonged to no-one

or is it because i later found out that it belonged to a man with a turban

is it because i sat next to a girl with pneumatic chest

or is it because i nudged her a little too hard to wake her up

is it because i played the drums when i didn't want to

or is it because the drum beats fell in place like symphony

is it because the girls were having some stupid awkward social tension

or is it because i gave chocolate to one and not the other

is it because i'm leaving this church and i'm saying goodbye

or is it because they're ignoring what i've just said

is it because there are some inter-galactic collisions out there that makes our heart beat faster

or is it because i'm trying find out what's making my heart beat so fast

today my heart's beating fast and i don't know why

2011-04-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

because words are like virus. if you don't fight back, if you don't block them out, they'll eat you up and you'll start spreading them.

Poverty

2011-04-23T11:51:00.002+08:00

poverty.

It's interesting to see how people are going like, oh! poverty is such a bad thing; we should eradicate poverty. Then economist would go like oh! poverty is part of the economic system; poverty can never be solved. Poverty this, poverty that.

Yea, I know it sucks when you don't have money. Well not everyone can have it. Because why? The world has limited resources or because of the way wealth is unevenly distributed or because of the wealth divide, nobody wants to put their foot in to step on mud. Whatever the case, absolute poverty or relative poverty, there will still be poverty. All because poverty is the human's perception. Because humans will look at someone who has more than them and say hey! he's got more than me, so i'm poor. fml.

Well yea. The thing is you know pastor Prince has been preaching about abundance and all quite some time back. I wonder if he still does. Anyway, I like the word abundance. It's such a nice comforting word. Wait so, so I've been thinking about poverty and abundance, and reading quite a few of selected blog, there seems to be like a hollowness, emptiness, like the lungs trying to scream out but producing nothing but a wisp of air. There is this cry of desperation, because they are so poor. It's the poverty of the soul. The soul. Can you believe it? You can have abundance of the soul for everyone. There's no limited resources. Just need to let God in, and your heart will be full. Right? Well same goes for knowledge and emotion and whatever else. Okay, time to fill my cup.

Zeno's Paradox - Archilles and the Tortoise

2011-04-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

Anybody who knows me should know that I love arguing, debating. I was up thinking about Zeno's Paradox and these were my thoughts before I decided to cut it short, and shoot an equivocation-charge at the paradox.

If there's one good thing I've learned in KI, it's this: true premises and valid arguments are needed for a sound conclusion.

So this is my take on Zeno's paradox. My attempt to prove that it is not a paradox, but rather a mistake; I believe that logic is infallible. Okay, not completely infallible; but for simple things like Zeno's paradox?? Come on.

Zeno's Paradox - Archilles and the Tortoise goes something like this:
Archilles and Tortoise have a race one fine day.
P1) Archilles runs faster than the tortoise.
P2) Tortoise gets a head start.
P3) Archilles reaches Tortoise's previous spot, and Tortoise moves ahead of Archilles.
P4) Archilles reaches the next Tortoise's previous spot, and Tortoise moves ahead of Archilles yet again! This time the distance between them is shorter.
P5) When Archilles has reached Tortoise's previous spot, Tortoise has already moved ahead.
P6) This process repeats for infinite spots.
P7) At all these spots, the Tortoise is in front of Archilles.
P8) The distance between Archilles and Tortoise becomes shorter and shorter at each consecutive spot.
P9) The time taken for Archilles to reach Tortoise's previous spot gets shorter and shorter.
P10) Archilles must move further at each spot to overtake the Tortoise.
C) Therefore Archilles never overtakes the Tortoise.

You can see that the premise does not lead to the conclusion in the sense that the premise are based on space, but the conclusion is based on time.

Looking at the validity of logic, the premises are based on induction...
Deduction, process of coming to a conclusion using ..
Induction, process of coming to a conclusion using ..

My conclusion: "aha! it's all in the semantics! it comes down to the word "never"! It's an equivocation! Wooh! yes! solved it! Good night!"

2011-04-18T21:48:00.001+08:00

I'm not gonna fall in love.